HAVANA AFFAIR

2008-04-21T00:34:00.003+08:00

Still hunting for the right people to (finally) put it altogether. Hurry pop up man. Sick of waiting..

Great and retarded company by some weirdo Booby Lee Bangkok boy and a green sea turtle.

Oh I wanna go for a nice vacation by the beach..

2008-04-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind

Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind

2008-03-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is what I really feel like now you assholes

You and I together in our lives
Sacred ties would never fray
Then why can´t I let myself tell lies
And watch you die every day

I think back to the times
When dreams were what mattered
Tough talking youth naivete

You said you never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation

Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

Paranoid delusions they haunt you
Where´s my friend I used to know
He´s all alone
He´s buried deep within a carcass
Searching for a soul

Can you feel me inside your heart
As it´s bleeding
Why can´t you belive you
can´t be loved

I hear you scream in agony
And the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation

Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

You said you never let me down
But the horse stampedes and rages
In the name of desperation

Is it all just wasted time
Can you look at yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

Is it all just wasted time
Can you live with yourself
When you think of what
You left behind

The sun will rise again
The earth will turn to sand
Creation´s colors seem to fade to grey
And you´ll see the sickly hands of time
Will write your final rhyme
And end a memory

I never thought you´d let it get
this far, boy

2008-02-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

A ballad of dark queen echoes through night
As he flees the curse of gods, the pharaoh`s wrath.

One thousand one nights unseen,
The philosopher and the queen.

Ancient mariner in a sea of sand,
The burning beauty his tomb to die for.

Horizon's swarming with death
Run!

Heaven has a darkened face,
Dunes are soaring as on a chase.
Caravan of the cursed
Chasing him across the waves.

May he now rest under aegis of mirage
As the sands slowly turn to Elysian fields.

Turtle holiday is over, I wanna visit the great deserts someday. The Sahara, Egypt..

2007-10-29T20:22:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHH I SHOULD HAVE JUST BOUGHT TICKETS TO HEAVEN & HELL AND MEGADETH NOW I AM REGRETTING LIKE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

And I couldn't take it and I went to check the setlist for Dream Theater's Chaos In Motion World Tour and OMG. I CANNOT WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

BYE GOING OUT FOR LAST MINUTE STUDY

2007-10-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

LOL

2007-10-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

Do not grieve, end the suffering
We will live, live eternal

2007-10-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

I wanna fold a paper boat and sail off to someplace where I can soothe my soul. Maybe I can, just maybe..

2007-10-03T00:11:00.001+08:00

The faint blaze of the candle
Of my life slowly dying
Like a fire in the pouring rain.
No sparks of hope inside,
No shooting stars on my sky.
On broken wings, no flying high.

Another night, another demise,
Cadaverous wind blowing cold as ice.
I`ll let the wind blow out the light,
'Cuz it gets more painful Every Time I die.

Out of strength to fight,
I cannot take another night.
I cannot take it no more,
Lust of light slips through my fingers.
Like blood drips off my arms,
Black candle wax has buried me.

Another night, another demise,
Cadaverous wind blowing cold as ice,
I`ll let the wind blow out the light,
'Cuz it gets more painful everytime I die.

2007-09-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRISTIAN GERARD CHEN POTTER SHENG!

2007-09-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERUPTEDBUBBLES/RONNIEBOIBOI/KRACOB!

It won't be long now..

2007-09-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

It won't be long before I can get back to living my life!

And also the many post A's plans :

- Trip to Phuket!
- Catch up with many old friends
- Song writing!
- Training to be Singapore's Malmsteen (not that I really like him..)
- Get inked!
- Have fun!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
SCREW YOU ASSHOLESSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE!!!!!!!!!! :D

ZOMG

2007-09-04T13:05:00.000+08:00

Hallo peeps! ZOMG I HAVE HORRIBLE ALEVELS,
after that i promise I'll go out with YOU, Brenda, Tsura, Marcus God, Ronald...And to alll my peeps out there yo
Keep chilling, and studying hard bros
PEACE OUT
GONG JIOU boy

EDIT: What the hell this isn't me Sarah posted this

2007-07-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite music videos!

I wish we were still in the 80s :(

2007-06-24T01:10:00.000+08:00

Who ever told you the 9th of August is National Day?

2007-06-06T02:04:00.000+08:00

Happy holidays!

Well not really. Getting used to studying everyday isn't that bad after all.

Just like the little kitten who doesn't want the froggy hood on him. Now that its on.. well.. feels maybe a little disconcerting but he'll live with it.

Sadly froggy hoody isn't going to be with him just for a while. Especially this whole thing with lousy Singapore education just ending up as Wash, Rinse, Repeat!

And then we don't really get any thing out of it. Well maybe its just that i don't realise it yet. Like a hidden treasure chest. Mmmmm. (HA SOUNDS LIKE HOTPREVAILS RIGHT)

Obviously I am just complaining about studying again ;)

But its gonna be over soon! Kids, fasten your seatbelts !

ANYWAY, on a different kitty note, what's up with Atomic Kitten and their moves? Didn't really suit the song that it was orignally meant to be. But turned out quite entertaining.. for me at least.......

Here you go. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awO9aJWz878

AND, I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT BUYING ANYMORE GUITAR GEAR ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAVE NO MONEY AND WHEN I CANNOT PLAY FOR NUTS.

Kekeke..

2007-05-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the most shocking things happen.
Wayne "Thunder" Seah, drummer for The Suns (formerly the BoredPhucks) passed away in his sleep on the 21st of May. I had always known him as the uber gay pro drummer from one of my favourite local bands, Ronald's drum teacher, the very passionate and friendly music producer, and funny guy on Rampage on the Airwaves. Never got to know him personally, only seen him around on SOFT often, but this man was probably one of my local music heros. Whats more have been looking forward to catch The Suns live next month.
Wayne Thunder has been working very hard to push the local music scene for sometime now, and this is such a great loss to everyone. Sometimes we just wonder why such stuff happen. This is sad.

RIP Wayne Thunder

Have you ever felt the future is the past, but you dont know how...? A reflected dream of a captured time, is it really now, is it really happening? Dont know why I feel this way, have I dreamt this time, this place? Something vivid comes again into my mind And I think Ive seen your face, seen this room, been in this place Something vivid comes again into my mind All my hopes and expectations, looking for an explanation Have I found my destination? I just cant take no more The dream is true, the dream is true The dream is true, the dream is true

Electric Gypsy

2007-05-20T13:15:00.002+08:00

Hello I am back! Blogger's a bitch with all the dumb google account thing going on. I couldn't sign in until today :( Anyways, check out my new axe!

Kwweeeeh?
On a side note, we have been dead for a little too long now..

Yep.
Thats all for now ;)

Well shes walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
Thats all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When Im sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

2007-03-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

Maldives, the sunny side of life. Great place to escape from the reality of our sad and awful Singaporean lifestyle.

One day, I will take my canary to Maldives. And maybe never come back.
Ohhh. Maybe, baby ;)

Pumblechook

2007-03-17T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hallo everyone!
I've embarked on my new quest of finding the person with the most cuppy ears.
If you may ask,
"How do you define cuppy ears"

I'll show you an excellent example!
I've been walking around, and find that, perhaps cuppy ears are a norm here.
But they are ridiculously hilarious and Cute in a way.

Here is MR CUPPY, get the idea?

March holidays, came like a orgasm, quick and satisfying.
Ha oh well, school again for me with my Brothers in Class
B.I.C
Cool huh, cooler than my blueblack ass
heh, see you all again in awhile.
Chick peas!

A little update

2007-02-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hello, I am not dead yet, in case you were wondering.

Last Thursday was such a great day for me. Unveiling the cake, blowing out imaginary flames on the candles, cutting, then smashing the cake. Oh boy. Not forgeting starting the day just right with a early morning greeting from my little canary.

And then after school i got dragged far away from school for lunch (which i was extremely reluctant at first), but it turned out to be a surprise and got me all embarassed.
Such a sweet day for me, and the very nice gifts. Couldn't ask for more! Thank you sweethearts!

On another note, Phunk Bar was quite unpleasant. Sound system was darn horrible and the sound crew were to the least very very irresponsible.

Don't worry boys, one day we'll get to play here :

:-)

2006-12-27T03:11:00.000+08:00

I am blogging finally just because I felt like doing so, and 'cause today is a special day.

A day of many thrills, EPEENS(?), smelly rain, and void deck passions(?).

Christmas's over, school's gonna start. Lazy to upload pictures, maybe next time.

Till then, so long, and thanks for the fish!

Mellow

2006-12-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

You roll out of bed and down on your knees
and for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?

No, she's not
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes
then all at once you have to say goodbye
wondering could you stay my love
will you wake up by my side?

No, she can't
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?

No, you won't
Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part.

2006-11-26T03:29:00.000+08:00

Cheesy it might be, but every November I would listen to GNR's November Rain, and maybe get a little emo. One of my all time favourite songs. :)

2006-11-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

This November, one-day camp's over, I finally tried Jalan Kayu prata (which really sucks by the way), lost my wallet, and began my lessons.

Anyways I think we should get our asses started on having fun before school starts again.

Trick or Treat?

2006-11-04T11:18:00.000+08:00

$2 paperbag masks, a $7 cheapo cloth cape, and a whole lotta fun.

2006-10-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

Circumstances have made me quite hopeful and optimistic.

2006-10-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more patience, yeah
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you
Whoa, I need you
Ooh, this time....

The results came out, i didn't make it. And everything's so screwed up, and getting wasted does the job only a little.

Ohh, feel the agony..

2006-09-26T02:33:00.001+08:00

I don't have plans and schemes
And I don't have hopes and dreams
I, I don't have anything
Since I don't have you

And I don't have fond desires
And I don't have happy hours
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you

Emo Nemo's back, with a series of awesome emotional wreckages.
Now won't you kill me?
So come and kill me.

2006-09-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRISTIAN 'POTTER' CHEN SHENG!

2006-09-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

FOR AUCTION

Man in the Robe :

Lady in the Water :

Snakes on a Plane :

Look for Marcus to bid for these fine pieces of art, NOT ME.

Starting bid - $27000 (by Kenneth)

The promotional exams kick in. I don't wanna get retained.

Luckly there is Children of Bodom to see me through :)

2006-09-13T16:57:00.000+08:00

My latest purchase:

Iron Maiden - A Matter Of Life And Death ( Limited Deluxe Edition With Bonus DVD )

:D

2006-09-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

My MI Audio Crunchbox finally came!

Disappointed with the sound of it intially, but i found it a very good sounding pedal when i tried it again the following day. Multiple clipping, so it sounds tube-bish. However it is a one trick pony with a familiar sounding marshall crunch. But, its performance is of course incredible. A lot of balls! :)

My mother took off to Thailand for a holiday, and my busy brother usually enters dreamland soon after he comes home. This leaves me alone with all the house chores. Ah.

Also. tagboard disappeared, no idea why. Will put a new one up sometime. (But not like anyone ever drops by in this small corner in cyberspace)

Promos in 2 weeks, and i need to start mugging like a dog.

2006-08-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

Friday night seemed somewhat familiar, with the impossible traffic light trick happening again. Went to Jerick's place for a nice night out after a LONG wait. (Sorry Dalcock, couldn't have Friday Starbucks stoning today.)

We found this cute small kitten hungry and alone, Joel and I tried to get close to it but it ran away. Then we sat at the road side like idiots, luring the little creature out with Joel's grape candy. Couldn't get a nice picture of it.

Then, everyone got threw themselves into the pool while I went alone to enjoy the night sky, with nice music and a certain thought stuck in my head. As soon as emo time was over, chaos reigned.

Fun minigame of trying to stay out of the water attracted the security guard, and we even wanted to push him in.

Late at night, someone refused to go home, and got me screamed at nonstop for 15 minutes by a bitch over the phone. Look kids, stay out of trouble ;)

And oh yes, I WILL try to start studying soon.

2006-07-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now its all I got
Were one
But were not the same
We hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I cant be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

Wet sand

2006-07-16T02:56:00.000+08:00

Rushed down to BayBeats halfway of CHMA, to catch probably one or two acts of the first day. CHMA was pretty much uninteresting, except for Ming Xuan's band, great performance. We had a great shock cause our dear brother Joel Nah turned out to be one of the judges. Surprise surprise.

Over at BayBeats, saw a couple of familiar faces, makes me happy. Sarah, Gi, Tina and Joey (hahahahaha) and their friends were there, as well as many other Cj guys. Love Me Butch was the last act of the day, post-hardcore band from KL. Moshing mayhem at the front, got completely drenched in my own (and a mixture of everyone's) sweat.

Apart from that, we pretty much got back results for every single subject.

GP - 52
Maths - 30
Chem - 34
Physics - 34
Econs - 32
Chinese - 59

Uh huh, I did the worst in my class, and this brings the point that MY CLASSMATES SHOULD REALLY SHUT UP ABOUT THEIR RESULTS.

Okay, you can act like you cannot be bothered about schoolwork, but please have the balls to say that you did MUG like FUCK for your exams. I didn't, you did, so say it.

Are you so afraid of telling people that you actually study? You want to pretend and make people think you're smart? And don't whine about failing that ONE OR TWO subjects, or that few more marks you could have gotten, when I very well failed almost everything.

So, shut the fuck up, and be happy with what you have. Its nothing shameful to study, I would be darn happy and would tell others if i have done so.

On a side note, after-school-study-group starts soon, with dear Mike and boys. They're the only guys in class that are true to themselves, and the CHEEBYE bridge assholes should go blow each other.

Have a good night.

Bron Yr Aur

2006-07-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

The whole week has been quite good, suprisingly. Lotsa free time, sleeping in class with the nice cold weather, having at least somewhere to go after school, oh boy.

Today has been an especially wonderful day. Chicken rice, 'hunting' for floorball stuff, esplanade, then to chomps, haven't had such a interesting day in a long while. Enjoyed the company of Gillian, Sarah, Dalton.

(okay lah, and also Cedric who had his DUMB ALL-GUYS TUITION, and Derric the DUMB TIRED GAY)

Just felt somehow that i had a wonderful Friday :)
World cup this weekend!

2006-06-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish,
how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd

2006-06-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

i went to queensway alone today. changed my new pair of shoes cause they were too small. sent my jeans for altering, but screwed em up, now i gotta spend more money to buy a new pair.

alright.

here's a nice artwork done by huang.

reminds me of how everyone's changing.

some are having the time of their lives, others grinding everyday to achieve what they've been seeking for. and of course those who have no clue what they are doing with their lives.

happiness, joy, love, respect, to feel complete, help fight against our mortal weaknesses. we are all afraid to be left out, to be not needed, to be unloved.

myself? its not that friends don't care for me, but this rollercoaster ride gets till a stage where its all at a standstill, or rather, a calm and peaceful road that is leading into failure and despair.

i can't fight against my own guts. i can't overcome my fears.

and the hypnagogia i am having breaks me up.

even the simple pleasures in life don't mean anything anymore.

i guess i have simply lost it all.

Forgive me please for I know not
What I do
How can I keep inside the hurt
I know is true

Tell me when the kiss of love
Becomes a lie
That bears the scar of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear of running
Unto you
Please let there be light
In a darkened room

And the biggest problem is, i don't even know what is going on.

(i added this to not make myself sound so emo. world cup and class gathering is this friday! and i have to start studying. beh?)

2006-06-03T11:48:00.000+08:00

from last week,

i had to delete the previous post cause tuan didn't like it. what a pity.

went down to watch paul in the studios again. this time was the results show. cristian's hair is getting loooonger and loooongeer. not fair.

paul has got himself some really weird fanbase. scary ones. and they would 'do anything just to get paul's number'. oh dear paul, look what you've done.

but he got through anyway, we just knew it. ha. then headed down to the prata house with the entire gang. then to home.

on a side note, depression starts to set in again. oh dear.

a series of extremely fortunate events

2006-05-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

hahahaha, its INSANE.

GILLIAN'S WEIRD DREAM CAME TRUE!

haha. we had no idea that we would have won 1st prize for ICTALENT. we didn't really bothered about the results right after playing cause we really had so much fun. haven't been so happy in a long time. and also means that cedric has to go back to church. HAHA.

the other bands were seriously much better than us, but they were unlucky cause of small screw-ups here and there. they all seemed damn sian and disappointed after their turn. made us feel very sad too.

anyways, thank God for this whole journey. He's been doing some really cool stuff right from the start. interesting. SEE KIDS, DON'T FORGET TO PRAY.

and also a BIG thank you to friends who came down. you guys were awesome. now we can show bro paul and tan chek suan a little something.

CHINESE LESSONS HAS BEEN GREAT!

now we all know that lao shi just isn't your average chinese teacher.

couldn't find any nice band shots from yesterday at ICTalent, will upload them if i can find any nice ones :D

so long and thanks for the fish.

2006-05-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

THE FINALS OF THE INTER COLLEGE TALENT COMPETITION BY SAINT ANDREWS JUNIOR COLLEGE IS NEXT FRIDAY 7.30 PM AT SAJC CULTURAL CENTER.

WE WILL BE PLAYING 'I WANT YOU' BY LOCAL BAND ELECTRICO.

AND MAYBE 'I BELIEVE IN A THING CALLED LOVE' BY THE DARKNESS

I HAVE MANY MANY TICKETS TO GIVE AWAY.

IF YOU ARE FREE AND WANNA WATCH PLEASE TELL ME BY MONDAY.

anyways, jamming everday feels bittersweet. its so damn great cause its so much fun, but then again, the whole competition thing is getting stressful.

plus my dumb-ass-creative-zen-neeon hanged PERMANENTLY on me. deprives me of my stress+emo+sian-therapy.

i bought the new chili's album a few days back. Stadium Arcadium.
some songs sound like their good o' Blood Sugar Sex Magik days.
and also many many ub3r soulful ones.
great solos. frusciante is the new hendrix.
amazingg.

however, it doesn't have any STRONG tracks such as Californication. but overall its still very satisfying.

alright, this vesak day holiday ends after a day of jamming, estella77, stronghold, and iron maiden dvds.

ohh i want you

2006-05-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA yes yes we got through. it was quite scary at first though. the silly teachers took a long time to release the results. i was accompanying shiyun to 'bukit dunno what' when i finally got the sms from the teachers. a place in the finals means we get A GUARANEED PRIZE MONEY of AT LEAST $20. HAHA. but we want the $500 top prize .(duhh)

seemed very difficult at first.
we went into the LT for the auditions and everyone looked so good and confident. we were thinking that we'll be dead and not get through the finals. we didn't even get a chance to do a proper soundcheck.

TUAN's band got through too. here is an extract from his blog of what roughly happened.

'so we had ICtalent auditions on saturday. we were kind of intimidated at first by a few other bands who displayed some skillzzzz during soundcheck. especially the TPJC guitarist who kept showing off his l33t shredding.

there were 6 bands before us. i only found two of them that really stood out, the funky cool NJC band with their uber style guitarist and MELLA and friends. (:D)

everything went wrong for me when it was our turn. strap pin was broken so i had to sit down and play AND i pressed the wrong button on samuel's multieffects, shutting off my sound for TEN SECONDS. still got standing ovation from the crowd but it was DAMN embarrassing. wanted to stay to watch the rest but had to rush off for canoeing training. later found out that the tpjc band played ocean avenue and sucked. BEH? what a letdown.'

tuan+brandon+joshua+chindian's band was good too. especially the vocals. SO, they made it through, we got through, the SA band with an original didn't go through, then i don't know already. i think competition would be quite intense that day.

we're gonna do a new song for the finals. rehersal's this wednesday but we are not prepared AT ALL.

MANY MANY SCARY.

From some time ago..

2006-04-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

This was from the 1st intake's 1T30. Oh yeah, brings back good memories.

2006-04-25T22:44:00.001+08:00

FOURTONES yesterday. as you can see, its a pretty nice place.

large area, great equipment. for $14 an hour, you get MESA BOOGIE, LANEY, MARSHALL tube heads, together with solid state cabinets (not that bad), PEARL drumset, IRON COBRA double-pedal, and lotsa cymbals. oh yeah.

BUT, we got the smaller and lousier room instead. cause we booked late. oh wells. it wasn't THAT great compared to the other room, but still, decent.

jamming was quite a good experience. cause of the GREAT company i had. ronald-very-good-at-the-drums-boy, sarah-very-wonderful-sexaye-voice-quek, cedric-funky-cool-power-bassboy, and benja-fast-playing-guitarist. we played 'i believe in a thing called love' by the darkness rather well, but still lacks the PUNCH though.

we are set at getting into the finals :D

its SINGAPORE IDOL DAY tomorrow, gonna go down to mediacorp studios to catch PAULA BOY sing his heart (balls) out.

HOT STUFF.

ECP BBQ photos

2006-04-01T10:55:00.001+08:00

i waited years for edward to send me these pictures

edward's damn gay. but i still love him. ha.

anyways, school has been rather stoned and depressing at times. but i enjoy the after school outings, with AUDEY (audrey), DIEGO (daryl), SQUIDWARD (joel), and a few others. lots of fun and laughter. oh yeah.

school tomorrow. oh well.

2006-03-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

so much has passed since my last post. its has been an emotional rollercoaster ride. first two months are over. 1t30 is gone. we had a lot of fun on the last few days of school. playing by the pond, talking rubbish in the canteen. and there's also the bbq over at east coast park. these guys are terribly awesome, and its such a shame that they had to leave. i'll miss them all.

and then there was the second orientation, where finale night was a blast. danced with derric, AGAIN. and then i got thrown into a class that i dread so much. got me emotionally distressed, seeing daryl eugene and the other new guys like george beng and daryl ong having such a great time in class.

my appeal for a change of class wasn't sucessful. perhaps tan chek suan couldn't be bothered at all. how selfish. i am still stuck in my new class 1t17.

i have always looked forward to breaks and after school hours to see the 'sunshine people'. hi's and bye's with them just makes my day. but unfortunately our time tables are never in sync.

but its getting better. yes it is. have to pray, a lot. :)

2006-02-19T20:30:00.001+08:00

had a very exciting week. valentine's day (tuesday) and my birthday (wednesday) was great. thank you everyone for the very nice and lovely gifts and letters! :D

vday : had barbeque with cat high guys. very funny time there cause of Ben's horrible and lame bbq-ing methods.

bday : went to eugene's place TO DO ECONS PROJECT but ended up in a chill out swimming session lol.

friday : pool with derric, dalton, harry, quek, avril, and chang kee at lucky plaza then to eugene's house again on friday. EMO DAY haha.

saturday : FUN-O-RAMA with janis. very very funny and crappy time there hahahaha. :D she's HOTT haha. poor girl kept sweating lol. then went to church and the usual place after that.

BUT, its a freaking boring day today. everyone seems to be doing HOMEWORK.. right.

2006-02-10T10:53:00.001+08:00

sometimes when you've lost all vision, motivation and inspiration, it's just so hard to go on.
when you find yourself going through repeated cycles, you know you're probably hopeless.

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

2006-02-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

HELLO UNCLES AND AUNTIES

MISS AMANDA TEE IS HAVING AN ACOUSTIC GIG @ THE ESPLANADE OUTDOOR THEATRE ON THE 17TH OF FEB 7.30PM.

LET US ALL GO WATCH AND SUPPORT HER OKAY. (ESPECIALLY FELLOW CJCIANS)

okay let me know if you wanna go.

today has been exciting haha after school ended me and derric were wandering where to go, but couldn't really decide. i needed to go repair my handphone but was lazy to do so we stayed in the canteen for very long until we decided to go home. on the way out we saw AUNTIE JANIS and she was bored with no where to go too so we decided after a very long time to go play pool at thomson.

stupid derric didn't tell us until we got there that the pool there was those insert-2-one-dollar-coins-to-play-one-game kind of table. so we decided to go to thomson plaza to slack until auntie janis had to leave for church. and poor janis was sweating due to the lousy hot weather lol!

we stoned at burger king and talked a lot of rubbish. super funny lah. haha.

but i had a lot fun eh. :D (thanks to both of you haha. we should do this someday again! and remember to take gay and funny photos one day ah.)

haha. and then we were so nice and gentlemanly to accompany this lovely auntie over to her bus stop to take her bus. and then we went back into thomson plaza and saw marcus liew and TIAN XIANG and their AJ classmates. not bad eh. got butches. haha.

and then i went home to play with my newly bought Line 6 Echo Park. we have ROCKAFELLASTANK auditions coming up, hope to do well eh.

but for now its back to doing my stupid GP web quest assignment. MEH?

2006-01-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

hello last week was quite exciting haha. and CNY's here. MONEYY. and GAS-GAS-GAS. gonna get a dunlop orginal crybaby later. and hopefully a 2nd hand delay pedal and uber metal soon. yay.

2006-01-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

AHHH THERE IS SOO MUCH TO DO BUT SOO LITTLE TIME!

2006-01-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

YOU'RE MY ANGEL, COME AND SAVE ME TONIGHT

2006-01-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

I AM DAMN F'ING FRUSTRATED AND PISSED.

I HAVE IDIOTS IRRITATING THE SHIT OUT OF ME WHEN I AM ALREADY VERY CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED.

I REALLY REALLY HOPE THINGS WILL CHANGE.

BUT THEY NEVER, EVER EVER, DO.

2006-01-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

i just came back to say that i miss cat high :(

all the little little things that happened. all the good memories.

hope you guys remember those awesome times that we had too.

but of course we can never get those days back.

thank you all who made my cat high days so nice, even though we hated cat high so much.

thanks! :D

2006-01-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

yay God answered my prayer, in a perfect timing! :D shall not say what it is about.

I HAVE SO MUCH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT.

1. i had a horrible haircut. sucks.
2. i have friggin a lot of homework and i dunno how to do any of them.

and

3. I HAD A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE BAD DAY. i woke up late at 6.30, rushed and rushed and was late to school by ONE MINUTE. and the freaking bus took eternity to come. and i had to do detention cause i was late. from 5-7pm. and class ended at 3. so i had to STONE in school until 7 for 4 hours. the whole school is super empty. everyone went out somewhere somehow to have fun. i was ultra stoned and no-mood for the whole of today. and its NOT ENTIRELY MY FAULT. rawrrrr!

and

i fell down twice on friday and my whole body is aching.

AND A LOT MORE AHHHHH. oh well i will just end here.

someone please save me ah! if you are reading this come! come make me happy :D

2006-01-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

urm life picked up to be a little better yesterday. edward made me play truth or dare LOL. we were supposed to go up to any girl in the canteen and ask/tell her

'can i buy you a drink?'
'can i ask you out for supper?'
'i'm nuts.'

he went up to some indian facil haha. when it was my turn i went to class 3 (where dalton and derric is) where there are many friendly people. i anyhow picked a girl who was quite nice and friendly from what i think but she replied instant 'no's to my first 2 questions, which seemed to me a little.. unfriendly. i thought i offended her or what and wanted to apologise so badly. i didn't even got to know her name :(

urm we had a bet with the facils that if we won the best cheer prize for POLARIS then Thad had to propose to Cynthia, complete with kneeing down and extra-sensual actions, like stroking of his unshaven moustache, and rubbing of his chest! haha!

we were all hyped up about finale night but when the real thing came it was like so 'uhhh'. i noticed the guys in your class were not even cheering lah. but at least our skit was quite nice and funny.

urm yeah the whole finale night was was wierd, but when it came to part of mass dance it was darn fun. i wanted to find i nice girl(hahahaha) to dance with since its the last day but everywhere was so crowded and ended up dancing with DERRIC. YES DERRIC. seems like his lifetime dream of dancing with me finally came true. but it was fun :D.

but when everything ended i didn't get to see HER. so sad. :(

and so our class were supposed to go out together to town but me edward and andrew 'happened to miss the bus' and we ended up on another bus instead. i really wanted to follow class 3 but later felt like i should not cause later things will be awkward from the earlier incident. but i really really really hope i didn't give them a bad impression cause class 3 is perhaps my saving grace cause i need somewhere to run to when i am lonely. :(

so we went up the bus and met 3 girls. charleen was one of them. she was from my IG so i already knew her so i talked to her. they were heading down to town too so i forgot who suggested we went together. the other 2 girls were xiuling and kailing. i am very glad i met them cause they are really nice people, from all the misery i have been having in cj.

we went to far east and so happened that our class was there too haha! then some guys from our classes said really not nice stuff which irritated the girls a little, and i felt a little unhappy.
we later went to BK and haha our class ended eating there too. so oh well we sat at the other tables.

urm we ate and we talked urm yeah. and i wanted to listen to nice love stories but i had to say first but no one else said anything after that. what the. and so later the focus came to the other j2s that came to the same BK too, and later to andrew haha. perhaps edward felt a bit left out cause he was unusually quiet. but well maybe i was the same too.

yeah and later i went home by train alone and urm yeah thats about all. sigh i still feel very down i dunno why. whyyyyy.

supposed to go swimming and jerick's house today. i didn't go. supposed to go pick up the marshall jackhammer for $50 today. i didn't go. supposed to go pick up a led zep t-shirt today. i didn't go. supposed to go repair my handphone today. i didn't go too.

just hope that staying at home won't get me too sad and depressed like it usually does..

2006-01-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

oh no i am really not enjoying life in cj. yeah there are nice cool people in my class like edward andrew and kenneth, but somehow everything doesn't seem to go well. everyone's so quiet. and there are only 3 girls in my class.

yesterday was when the whole class actually got more enthu, because the facils and a few others including myself couldn't take it anymore cause everyone was so dead. i didn't expect orientation to be like that at all. but dragon boating was relatively fun.

so after one week of school, a got to know about 5 new guys and ZERO girls. how cool is that.

i feel so out of place and lonely in school. J2s came to talk to us and they also agree that this new batch basically sucked - nothing like theirs.

come on man i didn't come to cj for this horrible time i am getting. i saw quite a few nice people around but they are in different classes and all. and i can't get to know them. i tried talking to some people i don't know to get to know them, but after a few lines the conversation's over and i don't even get to know their names. its depressing to see how my other friends are doing so well in the other jcs.

oh please oh Lord save me from this misery.

2006-01-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

i hate cj. at least for now. its been 3 days and it is ruining my life. at least for me.

please please all you nice CJ people come and make me happy i am lonely :(

i shall not say anymore. ask me in person for the details on my life in CJ. it's amusing.

2006-01-03T00:03:00.001+08:00

ARGH.

BITCHH.

I MY SCHOOL UNIFORMS ARE EITHER TOO SMALL, OR THEY ARE WEARING OUT.
THEY ARE GETTING THINNER EACH DAY, AND THERE ARE HOOOLLEESS.

HELP. I HAVE STUPID PIMPLES CAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN SLEEPING, DRINKING WATER AND EATING RIGHT.

ARGH.

anyways. CJ TOMORROW. i am so excited haha. school will be fun, hopefully.

yes wouldn't it be fun?

AND YAY I JUST RECEIVED $480 TO BUY MY IPOD FROM MY DAD.

TIME TO SLEEP :D

2006-01-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

2005-12-28T10:59:00.000+08:00

i have been rather down again lately.

work is alright. i don't really hate it but, life is getting hectic and disorganised due to it.

urm i dunno.. but i am just rather lonely and sad nowadays haha.

nono if you were to think mella is sexy, sexy boy sexy life (haha jeremiah), you are SO WRONG. cause i am just so lonely and sad.

everyone's preoccupied with their own stuff, even my closest friends. and sometimes people seem like they are either just selfish or ignorant and hurt others in the process.

well i need to look at the bright side of life but look, i wake up at 1pm everyday, and before i know it i am off to work. and then i get really friggin tired and annoyed i come home at about 12am, and stone in front of the computer doing absolutely nothing until around 4am.

and i have been missing out on so much. i couldn't go for many many clubbing nights the guys have been going cause i am just so worn out from work, and the others, urm i dunno what exactly are they doing. haven't been in contact.

alright so JC's coming up in a week, really hope it would help me. new friends, new environment new life OH YEAH SEXY LIFE BABY. uh nono. see how first.

2005-12-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

oh yes the JC postings are out already and guess what?

CJC.

but i am not complaining i didn't study. heard a lot of fellow SA-rejects also went to CJ haha. too lazy and didn't bother to appeal. oh wells. hope CJ would be fun. oh yes it would be :)

SPECIAL EDITION #1

2005-12-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

As kindly requested by Mr Mevyn Lee, here's a special edition about music in my life.
There's supposed to be another special edition about my secondary school life, but I am just lazy to do it. Oh well. Here we go..

Music started off for me since I was in primary school, when I was around primary three I think. I perstered my mother day and night to let me learn to play the piano, there finally urm I was there in a music center learning for around 3 years. My very first teacher was a chick. heh. she looked like a chinese version of Sarah Michelle Gellar. Nevermind. Then she got damn pissed at me for not practicing and wasting a lot of time during lessons. Then suddenly she was swapped with another teacher. Oh gosh that one was a nightmare. She was supposedly a 'she', but she was a really a 'he'. Or maybe a 'he/she' or a 'she/he'or maybe an 'it'. I dunno. It looked and sounded just like a guy, but still retaining or maybe even multiplying horrible PMS bad attitude tenfold of what you can find in a angst-filled teenage girl. Oh well. I couldn't stand her and I stopped learning. But I still do play some classical piano pieces once in a while..

I was also in the Chinese Orchestra in primary school. Suprised? I played the darn 'Er-hu'. I hate it now actually but it was quite a good experience playing as a whole orchestra. Hmm.

All the while I have been wanting to pick up guitar but didn't actually had a chance until secondary 2. The school had some basic guitar course going on. Learnt quite little but it really helped me to kickstart guitar.

Then I got my first electric guitar last year. A 'Craftsman' Stratocaster copy, together with a Vox amplifier. Then I got an Epiphone Les Paul with Seymour Duncans this year and I sold my strat.

Lets come to the part about the music I listen to.

I am not afraid to announce that I LIKED LISTENING TO THE BACKSTREET BOYS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL. NO NOTHING to be ashamed off. I still like their music. But their new stuff is HORRIBLE.

Listened to boybands and stuff they play on the radio pretty much in primary 5. Then I listened to Limp Bizkit. Oh I loved it then. And there came Linkin Park. Liked it too. Also listened to quite a bit of Blink 182.

Urm then went on to more pop punk stuff in secondary school, like more of Blink 182, Yellowcard, Simple Plan etc. I still like it though, but the newer stuff are as usual, suckier.

I watched plenty of MTV Asia the whole time in primary and secondary, and had this certain attraction to The Red Hot Chili Peppers when 'Californication' and 'By the Way' was always on the charts. Later decided to go in deeper and oh my it blew me away. The very first time I was so attracted to rock music. I tell you my friends. Go listen to RHCP. They are awesome. Don't just listen to their radio-friendly songs, go check out their other songs in every album. Its great.

The first time i actually understood what rock music was all about. Its not just the singing, its not just the tune, its EVERYTHING. It really makes you pay attention to every single thing. Guitars, bass, drums, vocals. Everything. RHCP blended everything very well. Go check out their live dvd 'Live at Slane'. Gosh its mind blowing. RHCP is definately one of the best, if not the best live band around. They can improvise and change the feel of the song perfectly, and the guitarist John Frusciante is such is genius. He blew my mind away.

Then got introduced to Guns n Roses in late secondary 2. I first heard Sweet Child O Mine. Awesome. Then went on to listen to many other awesome songs of theirs. November Rain remains at one of my most favourite songs of all time. Very well written, and really meant a lot to me.

Then went on to even more mind blowing stuff like IRON MAIDEN, AEROSMITH SKID ROW LED ZEPPELIN THE DARKNESS AVENGED SEVENFOLD X JAPAN U2 QUEEN.

I love them all.

I also love christian music because it really uplifts my spirit and the love for God and so its equally awesome too.

Urm this post is especially messy and unorganised. Thanks for reading!

2005-12-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

okay i haven't been blogging cause i am just plain lazy to do so. holidays are wierd. i got myself a job (2 jobs actually) and yeah, just see how it goes..

Love of my life, you hurt me,
You broken my heart, now you leave me.

Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know what it means to me.

Love of my life don't leave me,
You've stolen my love now desert me,

Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know what it means to me.

You will remember when this is blown over,
And everything's all by the way,
When I grow older,
I will be there by your side,
To remind how I still love you
I still love you.

Hurry back hurry back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know what it means to me.

Love of my life,
Love of my life.

2005-12-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

Gotta find a way
Yeah, I can't wait another day
Ain't nothin' gonna change
If we stay 'round here
Gotta do what it takes
Cause it's all in our hands
We all make mistakes
Yeah, but it's never too late
To start again, take another breath
And say another prayer

And fly away from here
Anywhere, yeah, I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are
Out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly

If this life gets any harder now
It ain't no, never mind
You got me by your side
And any time you want
Yeah, we can catch a train and
Find a better place
Yeah, cause we won’t let nothin'
Or no one keep gettin' us down
Maybe you and i
Can pack our bags and hit the sky

And fly away from here
Anywhere, yeah I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Won’t let time pass us by
We'll just fly

Do you see a bluer sky now?
You can have a better life now
Open your eyes
Cause no one here can ever stop us
They can try but we won't let them
No way

Maybe you and i
Can pack our bags and say goodbye
And fly away from here
Anywhere, honey, I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Fly away from here
Yeah anywhere honey
I don't I don't I don’t care
We'll just fly...

2005-11-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when yoy've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

2005-11-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

O LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER!
WE CAN ROCKET TILL THE SUN GOES DOWN :D

2005-11-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

its so depressing..

i screwed up big time for almost every paper already..

english - wrote TOTALLY out of point

SS - only completed half of the paper

geog - left out maybe 25 marks

e maths - screwed up

its so depressing..

so much for everything that has been happening this year.

too much complacency and ignorance.

hak boon's push for cat high to be number-1-school might suceed, without me.

2005-11-08T11:46:00.000+08:00

THE DIABOLICAL O LEVELS ARE THERE.
I TOTALLY SCREWED UP MY SOCIAL STUDIES.

BUT THANK GOD THE OFFICE JUST CALLED THEY FOUND MY WALLET.

alright after the o's i will have a special post about my days in cat high.

2005-10-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

Attention to all.

Mella will be gone from now on till after the o levels.

He will be going through yet another rough and difficult journey, to study, sort some stuff out and for healing.

He will miss every single one of you, especially a special someone.

Goodbye. :)

2005-10-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

Depression comes to me like a swash and backwash cycle. It doesn't seem to end. And the entire beach is slowly eroding away. For a while it seems better, then it gets worse again.

Sometimes i just wonder who am i. I have changed so much over these years. And after everything i still lose myself over and over again. And then again i didn't know myself from the start.

Falling and falling again to different problems, with nothing to hold on to. Guitar simply keeps you happy for a while and shreds the skin off your fingers. Music bring you up, or throw you down completely. Games sometimes make you feel worse.

Maybe its just the world.

AND DON'T YOU EVER EVER TELL ME THAT ITS MY FAULT FOR NOT SOLVING THE PROBLEMS. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON. DON'T ASSUME. IF YOU THINK THAT IS MY OWN FLAW, GET LOST. NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE YOU.

I am just not good enough at everything. EVERYTHING. I am a failure. Just kill me off.

Sorry.

My spiritual life feels a little dry, but i thank God for drawing me closer to him through the circumstances i am going through. For now, i can only hold on to his unfailing promises. Hope that i will be fine =D

So you wrote it down
I'm supposed to care
Even though it's never there
Sorry if I'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute
For me and all my thoughts of you
It's eating me alive to leave you

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song
Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes, that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you be,
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me...

I’m finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heart ache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Are friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles

And I don’t wanna be, don’t wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
Don't wanna be, don’t wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this.. In lieu of this song.

Like saturday night i'll be gone
Like saturday night i'll be gone before you knew that i was there

2005-10-01T09:35:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Life feels much more free and easy after the second prelims, which, of course i still did not study enough for. I screwed up for almost every subject, but surprisingly i was happy with my chem.

The last day was a super mad day. I screwed up emaths and the killer geography, which had us all mugging like idiots and writing many many many pages of stuff. Poor 'armchair geographers'.

I studied for geog but 65% of the time i was just looking around or stoning in the exam hall cause i didn't know what to write. Its quite scary, cause everyone else kept writing pages and pages of stuff. Seems like i will do super badly..again.

Thursday when it all ended my body felt like just breaking apart or stop functioning, due to many horrible nights of 'want-to-sleep-cannot-must-study-want-to-study-cannot-want-to-sleep'. So we ended up in Jerick's house. Poor Jerick couldn't study for his bio with us around. Had a bad dream on Thursday night.

Friday we went to Jerick's house again, to celebrate his birdday (birthday). We bought him a 'tur-reul' (turtle) or 'tor-rise' (tortoise). Sorry for the usual poor articulation of english that me and Werick often have. So we swam swam ran away from the poisonous smog ate ate pizza and had an exciting night of FARCRY which the monster monkeys shared the shit out of us. But thanks to CHIHONG, we made it alive.

Throughout the time i had something else on my mind.. related to the dream. And guess what i dreamt of a Part 2 to the dream this morning..with still nothing good inside.

Hope to rest for a few days more, then start studying like mad about triangles circles erosion weathering rock stratas in situ and stupid physics laws and so on. HOPE SO.

Have a blessed weekend :)

2005-09-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

Sorry friends but everytime i post song lyrics, it means that the words of the song is really how to feel lately and, yeah.

So just at least read the lyrics (for fun)

Work hard for o levels, be good, see you.

ESTRANGED - GUNS N ROSES

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're supposed
To find me lately
An what more could you ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself and nobody's home

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river too many times
to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time
Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die

2005-09-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear friends.

As you can see things are rather unstable

Like the way things are for Marcus Huang,

and probably myself.

And others who don't show it.

Everyone has their set of problems,

for some it might be big, some small,

but i realised something

that instead of laughing and one another (or handsome huang)

HELP EACH OTHER, LAH!

THE YEAR ENDING

WE PROBABLY WON'T SEE EACH OTHER OFTEN ANYMORE.

So..

sorry to those i affected during my moments of 'depression'

yeah and thanks to those who always cheer me up

and one more thing..

DON'T SUAN MARCUS ALREADY, LAH!

STUPID BOY...

2005-09-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained

But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change

And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today

Walking away

If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine

All mine

So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain

Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone

Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you

But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone

Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh

I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame

So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone

Everybody needs somebody

You're not the only one
You're not the only one

2005-09-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

URGH BAD DAY

and i lost my wallet how sad is that

URGH BAD DAY

2005-09-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

At this stage in life,

things are very shaky.

Listening to a lot of sad, slow, music again,

just hoping to really focus on studies now.

DO OR DIE.

But its not easy

Hope this endless rain/rollercoaster ride/nightmare will end.

will it?
will it not?

i am holding on..

I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't make me want to give up

2005-09-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

2005-08-30T19:19:00.000+08:00

OHHH AHHHH I JUST WROTE A SMALL RIFF AND I MINI-SOLO WHICH I REALLY LIKE. EASY USE OF BLUES A SCALE AHHHHHHH MUST COMPLETE IT INTO A WHOLE SONG :D

2005-08-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

hello. argh life is like a mad roller coaster. sometimes i am down and depressed, sometimes mad and crazy and happy.

sorry to lovely people like bryan and aaron gian who tried to cheer me up, sorry i didn't feel like talking. and sorry to marcus huang who i constantly teased, and also thanks to li kai who gave a lot of encouragement.

been listening to a lot of emotional songs lately. =D

like rhcp - dosed, x japan- tears, songs that make me even more depressed (oh no)

and some u2 songs which are really really meaningful (oh yes)

and a stupid book called the little prince.

don't worry about me i am getting much better already see i am even smiling =D

but i won't know what is going to happen next.

hope life completely changes after the o levels

btw i got 27 points for my L1R5 for the first prelims uh huh.......

2005-08-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under The Bridge

Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away

2005-08-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

ah i realised i haven't been blogging

prelims are over by the week. prelims for me was quite a joke. AH its prelims we know so we decided to go to jerick's place to STUDY after school everyday. we tried his function room before (and we lied all over the place and watched Vasamtham Central with the indian man swimming thing) and we had to pay $10 for the room but the malay guy forgot to collect it so we were scared he remembered so we hid in the reading room instead.

then tried to study for a while.... then turned into a chit chat session... then we ended up playing UNO CARDS. lol even till the last day we were like 'set ah no playing today' we eventually gave in to the lure of stupid cards. but suprising, every single time we played the paper on the next day was easy! so we thought it didnt harm to play more.. right till the last day.

so prelims ended and we thought we could party but the holiday mood was apparently on the whole time so it didn't feel much different. i played World of Warcraft most of my time in the week after prelims (which was very frustrating but fun), which i told myself is the ONLY REST WEEK so after this week i have to TRY TO STUDY again.

but in this week school was usual but quite unusual too. we went to the hall to check our e maths prelims lol i only got a B3 but during the checking i was so sick my head hurt i had to bang my head on the wall to try to get the pain off but when the pain disappeared my head hurt again from all the banging ah!

and chinese o levels results came out i got a disappointing B3d ah i screwed up this time. aiya retake lah.

then yesterday was kai quan birthday party we bought him the big turtle. woah he is mad. he plays his computer on his plasma tv in the hall and have all sorts of stuff in his room - gas mask helmets police hats telescope uzi pellet guns and ah basket he has a lcd tv on the wall of his room AH i don't even have my own room lah.

my head still hurts i am still sick ah!

2005-07-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

sorry in case you thought i died or what i haven't. just lazy to blog.

so many things happened since.

so many many many.

okay and i have my prelims now i am starting to study a little.

hope prelims end soon and i can play! =D

LOST

2005-06-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

school in the holidays is such a bitch. we go there waste so much time the lessons are unproductive and the classroom is damn hot and stuffy and makes everyone tired.

everyday of these week i am late to school by more than 30 minutes. the teachers seemed not bothered, but they actually are, like how tan ping hock flared up at shaun goh for eating his bread + being late.

and that stupid mock exam, like everybody i had this strong urge that i will study and do will for it, but ended up not even touching the stupid maths book at all. but e maths was easy, lah. wait till a maths on monday..

yay i watched LOST on thurday, really nice show. gonna be my next favourite show beside SMALLVILLE (ole!) and then me derric tuan and sijie were discussing on msn during the advertisements about what the scary THING was. ended up like this:

i think it's something like an ape monster
i think the baldie is psychic
but i dont think got dinosaurs
so i'm guessing some kind of ape shit
den wads the dog
marcus huang
or aliens -.-'
maybe its bucketheadland
ya new way to get in den the noise is the bucketbots and leatherface
maybe it's where the gransazers are before they come to singapore on 11th of june, where they will employ laser and pyrotechnique effects at downtown east
maybe its just us
i think is a gigantic robot used by the government to prevent intruders from seeing their secret lab
i think either is some alien or wad
or maybe the old man psychic everyone into thinking there's something.
its CHUNHONG.
AIAIAIAI.
it's GRANSAZERS
ITS WEILIE
It's ONG YUAN
chun hong will eat up everything
yea
or sharptits
ong yuan on my bed now
i dun think is alien
headhunters?
i think is clinkz
clinkz LOL
its sum gigantic flying shit. den when it flyover it piss all over everyone tts y got rain
LOOL
carnivorous giraffe
i think is just a monkey who wants friends
i think got some secret lab on the island or wad
maybe it's where the gransazers are before they come to singapore on 11th of june, where they will employ laser and pyrotechnique effects at downtown east
LOOOOOOOOOL GRANSAZERS

haha crap discussion. In case you didn't know, THIS is the GRANSAZERS.

yeah today was church's sports extreme. yeah in the game team eugene versus team alvin there were some really foul play, and bad sportsmanship. ended with a some unhappiness i think. then LOL very unexpectedly javier came up suddenly and said he wanted to take the penalty, and then he scored and brought us into the semi finals lol.

then we drawed again and again had chances but didn't make full use of them so ended up taking penalty shootouts and we came in 3rd. very unexpected! looking at the first two teams we had to fight i thought we would get kicked out early.

very very very very tired hahaha. bye.

2005-06-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

haha my poor hamsters are getting old.
their fur is getting "not as nice" and they've become very skinny.
just came back from daniels house and cg outing.
we went fishing.
fishing was enjoyable, we didnt catch anything.
only caught lots of seaweed which were growing all over the reservoir.
but lucky that we didn't catch any fish, cause we won't know what to do with it.
i saw this brown fish lurking somewhere in the weeds.
and lucky mr falcon who helped us tie the weights and the floats and the hooks caught this maybe half a meter long fish.
eh no it was another guy.
and we saw this eagle.
swooped down and caught an eel or something.

and daniel is okay, but his fractured collar bone needs maybe five weeks to heal.
okay i am sticky and sweaty bye.

2005-06-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

hello. i just came back, from tsura's house, and from the hospital.
today was bloody boring again.
everyone was probably busy with whatever they have and i can't find anyone to talk to.
(except for a few idiots like marcus huang that makes me repeat myself 5 times before something gets into his head).

so julius me and daniel went cycling.
daniel borrowed my 2nd bike.
okay so we cycled to this wierd place around thomson.
i recognised it as the place where people used to have illegal racing in maybe the 70s.
there were lots of long uphills and down slopes, which were either tiring or super exciting, because you can use the long slopes to reach the maximum speed that you can ever get on a bike.

then suddenly it led us to this place with a great scenery.
my first time there, upper pierce reservoir.
had thoughts of blogging about the nice things about the place,
but i didnt expect myself to be blogging about this.

daniel somehow lost control on one of the slopes.
julius and i were already in front and went we looked back to see where he was, we saw people crowding around him and saw him on the ground.
i thought it was just a small fall or what,
but he was lying there, shaking, like having fits.
he was semi conscious, he couldn't respond to us.
he couldn't remember how he fell.
he took a while to be able to respond to him
we were afraid.

i quickly prayed and smsed as many people as i can to pray for him (now the whole world knows about it).
the ambulance took bloody long to come.
julius and some nice guy helped to bring the bike's the julius's place.
i went with daniel in the ambulance.
thank God he was already quite conscious at that time, i heard the paramedics laughing, probably daniel telling them lame jokes.
then went we got off from the hospital he was laughing at himself cause he was bandaged.
i thought he would be all okay.
i waited there for quite long.
his family came, then pastor dave, shukun, joel nah, chris chia, amy teo, kelvin leong came.
and news came he fractured his collar bone.

i don't know why it happened. i feel very wierd, wierder than this morning.

lets pray for his speedy recovery.

2005-06-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

hi. life feels very wierd now. chinese o levels has came and gone. considerably a managable paper, but i screwed it up totally. Out of point for letter writing, lousy points for compo, and i thought i had too much time for paper 2 i decided to stone, until i have not enough time to finish the paper.

i don't know i just couldn't do the paper properly. don't know what the reason is.

everything still feels very wierd, although i have been out to have fun a little.

argh. don't know. sorry this is really wierd bye.

2005-05-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Argh its really difficult to aim for RJC, cause of the stupid through-train thing. and yeah those who are reading this might be really suprised, cause mella that idiot never ever studies and fails constantly and wants to get into RJC. hahaha.

Yeah RJC is too difficult, so i might now aim for either VJC or SAJC (ole no stupid lousy AJC). i sort of hate HCI NYJC TJC and AJC. hahaha. yeah but it its best if i just freaking try to do my best then see where i can go.

ARGH this week is stupid chinese intensive that means we have to see C CUBE for many many many periods this week. but heck chinese o levels is next week so, yeah. i really gotta get A1 for chinese man. if i can't even get an A1 for my best subject (i think), i am doomed for the rest of the o levels.

yeah God really spoke to me a lot through 1st Corinthians. haha. bye work hard everyone and make C CUBE feel stupid for scolding us like a......... Cube?

2005-05-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

chinese prelim number 1 has come and gone. i got only 63 (sucks)
then came chinese prelim number 2 .
and today was english prelims.
ARGH! CHINESE O LEVELS IS NEXT WEEK DIE!

2005-05-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

LOL WE MADE IT THROUGH CHMA AUDITIONS YAY PLEASE COME SUPPORT US THANKS.

2005-05-02T11:30:00.000+08:00

hey hey chinese prelims are gone. haha the paper was quite easy and was sleeping half the time in the second paper. hope i do well.

oh ya we screwed up real badly for the CHMA auditions i don't know what to say.

urghhh this weekend is long but very..boring.

2005-04-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

hello yesterday was my mum's birthday i bought her a pearl necklace which was unusually cheap. i had to borrow $30 from my brother because i was broke. and now i owe my brother $230 and i owe my mum $200. haha.

feeling really wierd today someone please come and cheer me up thanks.

2005-04-21T18:38:00.000+08:00

eh i somehow forgot about my troubles now yeah so i guess i'll be okay haha.

ah school life is really messy, due to constant procrastination. like todays test i only write 1 page when everyone (especially nicholas) wrote friggin long ahh sure die. i dunno i really need to get things straight which obviously includes studying. might need to join the 'catalyst club' (if you know what that is) haha.

ah my mind is really at this coming tuesday's CHMA auditions hope we cab get through we need to rush like mad already not much time left.

anyways just for you infomation

CH Music Awards
Date: 1st July 2005
Venue: Catholic High Secondary School Hall
Time: Should be around 7-7:30pm evening till around 10pm
Number of seats: >750 Maybe around 900?
Audience: Anyone
Ticket price: $8 (i think)

something like talentime yeah i will be taking part in 3 catergories - rock band, original composition and group vocals. hope we can make it through and hope our friends will come and support us (yes, YOU).

okay mum is at home today shall TRY to do some work.

2005-04-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

i can't stand myself. i really can't. just about everything in my life is wrong. all messed up, but i am still pretending that everything is fine. having a hell of a time feeling very depressed or filled with angst (not that much) for a while, then the next moment i forgot all about it and begin to think of other stuff. why the heck am i like that? i don't know.

some problems cannot be solved. some can. but i am not doing anything to make things better. i don't know i just can't. i can't sit down for even 15 minutes to study. i know its not that difficult but i just can't.

yeah i am like that. and i am feeling lost. are you my friend? would you care for me? or am i just another small part of your life that you don't really bother and can live without it?

i don't know i have been thinking quite a lot. hope things will get better. yeah.

2005-04-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

i can't take it i am breaking down.

2005-04-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

hahaha this week is very very wierd. i got so much to say i will break in down into different parts

NUMBER ONE

had three tests today physics is okay a maths is crazy geog is okay. everyone kept complaining that they will fail and blah blah.
but then fat tan helped them mark on the spot they all got above 20/30 la. idiots. i didn't study (as usual) and i think i will get 2/30 because i only got one question right.

NUMBER TWO

the bloody government has gotten the stupid first three month jc thing although it can help you to better get into the jc you want but i hate it la. it totally ruined all my wonderful plans of going to work then buy myself my dream guitar etc etc.
now we will only have about one month of hoildays. and with my current study attitude at most i can only get into CJC using prelims la. CJC is definately fun but, if i go there i can forget my goal of getting into maybe... RJC? haha.

NUMBER THREE

i keep saying that i want to get into RJ but i am still not doing anything about it. i am still failing and getting single digits because i cannot be bothered to study.
i know i must do something about it. first is to NEVER EVER touch the computer or my ps2 in the WEEKDAYS. and i keep thinking about GUITARS.

NUMBER FOUR

i am planning to get a new guitar and sell my old one. planning between an agile and an epiphone. both les pauls yes. agiles and cheaper and much better but i have to ship them in from the us and it will cost me bloody much la.
so i dunno to get an epiphone SG (might suck) 2nd hand LP (hard to find good ones) 1st hand LP (no no no money) or agile LP (depends on shipping and i cannot bloody test the guitar before buying duh its in the us). how how how how i dunno i really dunno ahhhhhh.

NUMBER FIVE

lol and my mum is still experimenting with more crazy stuff. she tried putting YAM POTATO PINEAPPLE MANGOS ALL SORTS OF RUBBISH.
i dunno what is her problem! and the POTATOES ARE LITERALLY LIKE RUBBER please i can't even chew em.

NUMBER SIX

cca is so stupid i hate my cca and SYF is so bloody close 11 april and they haven't really confirmed everything yet.

NUMBER SEVEN

poor daniel lost his wallet today and we spent until 9 in school helping him search for his poor wallet. his wallet mysteriously disappeared after he got raped by the ncc guys sad he gotta make new ic $50 and so very troublesome.

NUMBER EIGHT THE BEST

LOL after searching in vain for his wallet we went to try something interesting we jumped off FROM THE SECOND FLOOR down to a thick big cushion materess thingy which they use for high jump. LOL was SUPER SCARY LA. like commiting suicide.
i hesitated for about 2 minutes before i dare to jump la. about more than 2.5 meters high. lol and it was super adrenaline pumping as you feel yourself falling through the air and after then i went for another 2 times. MAN AR!
lol then later mr goh kee yong caught as and we faster grabbed our stuff and went home. i took about 4 videos of it IF YOU WANT TO WATCH I CAN UPLOAD AND SEND IT TO YOU its really funny lol. whole lotta fun.

haha so much stuff. got stupid CIP collecting newspapers tomorrow yes can bully sec ones BYE!

2005-03-28T22:56:00.001+08:00

lol i thought i destoryed my electric guitar just now. but i managed to get JIMMY back into one piece woo haha.

2005-03-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

lol i thought i destoryed my electric guitar just now. but i managed to get JIMMY back into one piece haha.

2005-03-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

ah my mum bought this wierd machine. dunno what snack maker or dunno drying machine thing. dunno. she puts fruits inside and dry em till they become dry, or maybe dryer :S

so happily she starts making apple chips and they taste good ,and then she goes into a frenzy making all sorts of rubbish. she experimented with pears, tomatoes, carrots, water apples, red dates, oranges, bananas and other rubbish.

but ole i have apple chips and banana chips and pear chips, which turn out nice to eat haha.
but the rest are...yucky.

lol i read in UG that anthony kiedis pushed a very large security guard and ripped his pants at a designer show and it took eight security men to hold him down to prevent him from entering the backstage area. woah fit shit.

and hooray RHCP have revealed they have already written 35 songs for their next album. The band are expected to start recording sometime in march. "We're so in love with the songs we wrote. We're working really hard." - Kiedis

yes i can't wait for their new stuff! and i NEED MORE OF BECK AHHH. BYE.