Thursday, February 17, 2005

i am finally 16. sweet sixteen eh? not really. sixteen is just the age that you have to friggin take the bloody o levels. school is just stupid and meaningless and a waste of time.

sixteen is wierd. feels like you have grown up, but also feeling the little kid within you. so i dunno. i really dunno. but i can watch now nc16 movies without sneaking in and playing pool without seducing the auntie first.

i went to tuan's house today to try out his les paul today. i tell you i am surely going to get one. when i picked 'tom' up, i fell in love with it (no not gay). much better than my china custom made cheapskate junk. shall 'invite' tom to my house one day. tom, ai kia mai?

was planning to in anyway force a new guitar out of my dad for my birthday. but heck. he doesn't even remember our birthdays. he probably doesn't even remember he had a family here in singapore.

been having serious mood swings lately. and sometimes even though you might see me crazy outside, i might actually be very sad and moody. sometimes i feel like no one cares about me. i am probably just the other small part in their life. i am just another friend.

i don't know. this entry sounds very wierd. bye.




i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life

late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone

and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too

and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here
you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye

and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
i hope that all is well in heaven
cuz its all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cause i'm so...
lost without you down here

you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say gooooodbye